candy's comfort zone

I have been damn emo lately. Slept almost once every 2 days. Cried alot. Cried over nothing.
Seems like something is bothering me which myself don't really know what actually i'm worrying for. Life seems perfect to ppl around me. I can say that my current life is not short of anything. I got a good hsbnd, i'm not lack of money although not very rich, no need to work, i just came back from holiday, i may eat whatever i want, i'm considered gorgeous(at least for bby ), clubbing almost every week, may go shopping and buy anything that i want as long as bby can affort, bby even gave a duplicate card. So sometime i ask myself " what the hell are u emo for ? What's more do you want ? isn't it your life is the kind of life that alot of ppl pursue to have ?" i don't know -.-

My ideal life is very simple, i wish i have a job, and bby stay with me. is that so difficult ? i'm not a 女强人. I din set any goal for myself since i was child ( except to be a singer, most of ppl wish to be a star when they were young right :D ). I have been working since 9 yrs old. Destiny was not very kind to me. I have to work to keep myself alive. So i got no time to think of what job shld i get or what i want to be. Life was too busy for me, i need to school and work at the same time,  none of my time was being wasted. But Life changed since i met bby, i feel grateful that everything provided by bby, nothing i need to worry about but at the same time i'm doing nothing except playing game and fb. poor thing. Not that i'm regreting my life now, i'm not and i won't do anything that will make myself regret, that's what i hold so far. Only jobless makes myself feels worthless. Seems like the main problem now is i need a job. That's it ?

Roughly 2 months more I'm going to follow bby to vietnam as he being posted over there. We going to Vung Tau, and we will be staying in a hotel. Maybe the nearer the departure date, the more i'm worrying. Ever thought of staying here and he promised to come back once a month. But i don't want to have a same life like last year, he was in batam, i was working here. he came back once a week, and my life was only working and sleeping.

Now......

What i am going to do over there ?????